i feel like a total loser. i feel like shit. perhaps sometimes some things are not meant to be said. i should seriously stop emoing. but i cant help it.

i dont know if you are referring to me.
but it hurts. seriously.
cold replies are what i get
whenever i ask you anything.
i dont dare to find out the answer
cause im afraid to know
im afraid to lose you.


so many things are going on at the same time, happening to me. i dont know what to do. perhaps it would be much better if i were dead. ): will you be there to catch me when i fall?

Dione thanks for today. It was very comforting. for once mother tongue lesson was not about laughing at Mao lao shi. (x Thanks so much. im really really glad and happy to have you as my friend. You rock. (:


everything's changed.
i need time to be alone.
to sort out everything in my heart
theres too much to take
and i can collapse any moment
so please dont let go now.

i went to see the doctors on friday around midnight. i went to sleep at around 10 with a wet cloth on my forehead. and still no one was at home yet. so i thought that sleeping would kinda help. then when i was waken up by my mum it was around 11.30pm. i was burning at 38.2deg by then. HOT.x( then went to the doctors. i waited bloodily long ok. there were only THREE freaking patients and the 2 patients took like 10 billion hours inside. i almost wanted to kill the doctor. tsk. then when the doctor asked a dozen stupid questions and took my temperature - 38.5deg. woah huh. yea. i was dying. and i have been having this murdering headache these few days.


its like theres this hammer Banging inside my head with a constant rhythm and i cant do anything. grr. i feel like chopping my head off. this sucks sucks sucks.. x( i hope i get well soon. and the shittiest thing is that i forgot to get an mc to be excused from physical exercises. or how about the brainless doctor was so eager to go home that he didnt bother to give me an mc. tsk. i hate this. hope that this freaking throbbing headache would go awayyyyyy.

im burning. 37.9 deg. and no one at home. maybe i'll die. i feel horrible. HELP. :/

Mrs woo gave 3P kissables today! i LOVE her!! x)) Today went paya lebar with Vanessa koh, Huizhen and yinsuen. haha. so fun. played tai di and i kept winning. x) hui zhen wanted to win so badly. lol. when we went back, i started sleeping. then i missed my stop and ended up at the interchange with this sec 2 staring at me on the bus with my half awake face. so malu!! haiz. waiting for the bus then i was even dozing off at the bus stop. as if i had taken some sleeping drug or something. tsk. so i asked my dad to fetch me at the bus stop where i was going to alight later. then he fetched me into the house which took only like 3mins, so kinda dumb but still, i think i have to catch some sleep. zzz

I love mrs woo! shes so nicceeeee!!! :DD haha. got hit by her today. and it sent my specs flyinggg. haha. quite pain. but now ok lerhs. (:Ms chua's nice too! i love peppermint too! x)) yay.

TIARA SAYS THAT IM BEING SPAS CAUSE IM AFRAID OF THE TISSUE PAPER THINGY. :/ but im really freaking out. Tiara just called me saying that hers worked too. x_x im ultra afraid now. tsk. i feel like i've got no guts la. haii. but actually i rather be without guts than get myself into stuff like being possessed. CHOI! touch wood. i wont. ok. i shant think about it further. byee. nitex. muacks.

PARTNER IS SUPER HAPPY TODAY AGAIN! (: cause she scored full marks 8/8 for ss timed assignment. i scored 7! yay.


IM SUPER SCARED NOW. cause i played the black magic with Aijia, mok and ella today at the Bishan library. then mine the paper came out. second time already. x_x super freaky ok. T_T oh ya. today we pon 3rd lang to go library. then we were at the top level. then two girls and one guy went to set off the fire alarm. causing chaos. haha. and then the staircase, lifts were blocked. then the metal blocking to block out the glass compartments with people inside reading started coming out. haha. quite funny. then after that we couldnt leave. cause the stairs were blocked. hehe. but in the end the metal thingy came out then we left. i dun want to be possesed! im NOT EVER GOING TO PLAY BLACK MAGIC AGAIN. so freaking scary. )x

I LOVE MY DARLING. :D so cute isnt he. *screams in delight* omg. im going gaga over him. =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS.

p.s. hes mine. HEE. (:

PARTNER's SUPER HAPPY TODAY. because she scored well in the test. (: today's emath was ok. but im damn damn scared of tmr's amath. x((( alpha and beta sucks. i gotta try figure out the formulas. cant wait for tests to be overrr! woo hoos. then we'll celebrate. xD byeee.muacks.

all of a sudden i feel that my world is black and white
can someone pull me out of this

went back to school today for math remedial. i was alittle late. hehs. and it turned out to be that only 8 people came. i thought that the whole class or something would come lar. tsk. i have to start studying math, geog and chem cause got test! :// MUG. x/

yesterday went to SENTOSA! woo hoos. it was fun fun FUN! x))))) yea. i LOOOVVVEEEDDD it. hee. me, cheryl chen, dione and yuqi bought this Jumbo ice kachang which was huge. haha. we were busy swallowing ice. but it was superbbb! then we went to fort siloso and took alot of pictures. shall upload them another time. Heh, then we were busy standing under the aircon cause it was really hot. haha. we had to tap the admission tickets when we entered to take the tram and all those. then always, cheryl and dione would walk before us. and then me and yuqi would not be able to tap our cards. then we would be cursing and swearing till the nice people in charge come and help us. ((:


well, i shall talk about today's guides. it was fun too. xD we went to school first to practise knots. then quite a few people didnt turn up. then some of us went to Pasir Ris for "outing". then we took tonnes of pictures again. then we rode bikes. and just so unluckily, it started pouring. and so we were cycling in the rain, trying to look for shelter. and by the time we found one, we were drenched. but at around 3, almost 3/4 of our group left to go home. and only Amanda, Grace, Merri, Clarice and me were left. then we cycled and cycled, played and played. And i think amanda's bike fell like 7 times?! she's so PRO huh. x) and when amanda and hui zhen were cycling the double bike, they couldnt go up slope and i stopped to help them. but they just kept sliding downwards and this group of guys stopped to cheer for them. haha. X)) and finally left. and then Amanda found her ez link card missing. then we were dragged for like 1/2 and hour or something. then Merri, Clarice and grace left cause it was rather late. then me and amanda were waiting. so we left our contacts and went to wait for the freaking bus. then just as we reached the Pasir Ris mrt station, Amanda got the call saying that her ez link card was found! =D .so i left first cause i had piano lesson. and then i took the mrt. i was practically squashed by the crowd. :// but still, my dad picked me up. and cause we were running late, he drove at great speed. hehs.


and i think that im like staying out for so long. i should spend more time at home! =D. ok. i gotta go. Gd Nitex.

went back to school today to meet priscilla to do stuff. ((: cant wait for tmr's chinese ipw outing with dione, yuqi, and cheryl chen. =) and wed got guides outing! woo hoos. i hope i can see the sunset. =D but after all the fun, its breaking necks again. 4 tests in 2 days = torture. x( im STRESSED. but still, i have to mug mug mug.

i want another OAC. )): oac from 6days was reduced to 5 days, then now only 2 1/2 days. )): Just when everyone was getting used to OAC, starting to enjoy everything, we had to break camp. 3P had bonded well, and it was really sad when we sang Linger in class before going to the MPH. So many people broke down in the dorm. boo hoos.. Everyone didnt want to break camp.. We hope that there's gonna be another OAC and no more food poisoning..


and also, i seriously cant do high elements. i was shaking vigorously up there and felt like dying. x( i shall just maybe cheer for 3P. but no one from 3P got food poisoning. yay! indeed we are POWDERFUL POLKADOTS. =) but i am freaking sad that campfire was missed. x((((((((((. i wanted campfire so badly... haiz. hope that theres another oac. now i need sleep.