Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it.

A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put on everything into perspective. It is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influence and there is no one to rely

Your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you'll have to make the best of things as they are.You are experiencing extreme emotional disappointment because it would seem that a particular relationship is no longer running smoothly.

You would like to break away from this involvement completely and yet, if this were to happen, then its possible that something very important to you would be lost. You are in a quandary.You are not sure which way to turn. So on the one hand, you would like to free yourself from this attachment altogether, yet on the other, you do not want to lose anything nor risk uncertainty and the possibility of further disappointment. These contradictory and opposing emotions are now causing you considerable stress but you are putting on a brave face - pretending that you don't care.

Anxiety and a restless dissatisfaction, either with circumstances or with unfulfilled physical or emotional needs are producing considerable stress. You react to this by blaming everyone but yourself. You are aggressive, sarcastic and embittered. Try to be understanding and a little flexible - it will pay dividends in the long run. and it could well be that accordingly all of your dreams could soon be realised.

this explains it all.

when the world around you starts crashing, sometimes you dont know who to turn to.

its ok if you dont understand, cause no one lives the same life as me.

highest score for this year's psle was 294. that is freaking mad. i bet they moderated ALOT. but it doesnt affect me, so yea. back from chalet. (: i wish it could be longer. and more escape! im freaking scared of flipper. ): go cart is fun, but people swerving out of a sudden causing crashes and bumping purposely isnt really nice. the mini roller coaster and the wet thing was nice too. (: ferris wheel was damn high. ahh. and haunted house was just scream scream and scream. haha. but half the time we were being scared by the people there. they're very nice! (: and oh ya my sandals/slippers spoilt so i bought a ripples one. yay. next year. yea. (:



ENCHANTED ROCKS! Patrick Dempsey is da love. (:

last day of wep. ): i still want. )": i shall go back! maybe next year? (: im gonna miss the people there. well, at least i have pictures. (:

i miss

wep rocks. i love my sit. clear view! haha. only ong knows what im talking about. (: how am i gonna survive after tmr, without that view? ah. :/



I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

zmg. i just came home from wep and the staircase's floor has been splashed with paint and written 'fuck' on it. it is kinda scary. and luckily my bro opened the door for me while i was fiddling with my keys, trying to look out for dangerous people. and im alone at home now. i shall be brave! (:


today wep was kinda slack. half the time ong and i were staring at the staff and eating eating and eating. hur. this Alvin guy is damn funny. haha (: and _____ CHOCK! ahh. i wonder if ___ and ____ compare who'll be more. haha. yay i like wep.

first day of wep today. ong and i went damn early. hur. they didnt have things for us to do at first, but die die also must find things. so we did paperwork, paperwork and paperwork. hopefully tmr we can try something new, cause this has nothing to do with food at all. its totally different from what we thought it would be like, so. yea. and great news! i passed my grade 6 piano exam, moving on to grade 7 now, the pieces are kinda hard. and i listened to the cd and all the songs are fast. urgh.


AND I CANT WAIT FOR 鬥牛要不要!!! its airing in taiwan starting on the 18th nov, 10pm. WOO HOO. it has HEBE, MIKE HE, LEE WEI and many many more stars!! haha. (: seriously, i cant wait! the show has bball in it and ALL the stars know how to play bball very well in real life. YAY. its gonna be FABULOUS. hebe and mike- new combi. maybe i'd still prefer Rainie and mike. but i like hebe too! (: i love the cast in 鬥牛要不要!


hope he'll come tmr. (:

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying?
Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud


Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak


And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel


It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue


Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak


And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel


It's really good to hear your voice say my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak


And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel


And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

i love this song. (:

my neck hurts like shit. urgh. i cant turn and i could hardly sleep yesterday. ahh. studying with merri today? (: its time i get down to work.

now i know what people mean by wang en fu yi. i guess you forgot about how i was the one standing by you when bad things happened to you, and when your so called best friend was the one creating trouble for you. yuck. you're off the list, _ _ _.

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do not make wild assumptions. hur.

i shall not let idiotic people ruin my mood. hmpf. (: i want shopping dates, studying dates and cooking dates! woo hoo. =) anyone?

today was fun! hohoho. (: i love nail polish. haha. but 3/4 of them are like off my fingers. ): i want more. ): huichun, tell me where you bought that colour! i like! alot! (:

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and mr ang is damn nice.